Ewa Ladkowska
The Wandering Wolf
By Ewa Ladkowska
The Backstory
The idea of The Wandering Wolf came to me in 2017 while I was studying drama & theatre at Aberystwyth University. The solo performance was part of my final major project.
It began as an exploration of my upbringing as a Third Culture Kid (people who are raised in a culture other than their parents' or the culture of their country of nationality during a significant part of their lives) particularly when it came to unresolved grief.
I took the opportunity to break the cycle of my unresolved grief by acknowledging that my time at Aberystwyth University was ending.
The poem that inspired the performance...
There was no funeral,
No flowers,
No ceremony.
No one had died.
No weeping or wailing.
Just in my heart.
I can't...
But I did anyway,
and nobody knew I couldn't.
I don't want to...
But nobody else said they didn't.
So I put down my panic
and picked up my luggage
and got on the plane.
There was no funeral.
- 'Mock Funeral' by Alex Graham James (Third Culture Kids: Growing up Among worlds)
The Vision
In 2023, while spending 10 days at a silent retreat meditating, I envisioned myself bringing my beloved performance to life and touring it all over the world.
Because of the way the performance was structured back in 2017, it needs to be revamped so that it can appeal to a wider audience. The process continues to be an exploration of self. It can be seen as a continuation of its first form. It is a journey. The Wandering Wolf continues to travel outwardly and internally.
I am currently rehearsing in my living room. :)
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